Last day

So I should be givin this laptop back to S.D. today. Using it to catch up on emails and information was quite helpful. I thought I was giving it back yesterday but he worked later than usual so I held onto this "pet".

I have cleared my tracks from former affairs. Something I have not done in a long time but feel it is my own therapy and escaping unneeded drama in my enviroment.

While cleaning my home I rediscovered old love letters from my former lover of last year. Now I understand why some people hold onto these things. It is like looking back at old photographs and recalling fonder times and moments. My last affair of the heart was a short storm of misgivings, miscommunication, and has left only wounds of mistrust inside me.

Thankfully I am self-sufficient in keeping myself occupied, even if it is walking to the park and watching the sky move overhead. I have started re-reading of one of the D'Annunzio bios I have.

I have been craving chocolate milk since I awoke at 3:45am. i may just go to work early to take care of that urge.

Finally, laptop keys have a fragile feeling while typing. It is like tapping on egg shells.